bye bye autumn :(

This year autumn didn't get really long.

A few weeks ago we went to school without jackets and now...

I can't stand the winter.

Everyone is fat bacause of the winter coats.

It's cold and my nose is red.

My skin gets dry.

I just can't stand it.

I hope it's over soon.

I think I got over him

I thought i would be in love with him until we are finished with school but I made it:

I'm over him!

Now I can focus on more important things instead of crying because I can't have him.

I'm free again.

Maybe I'll soon find the right guy.

Smoking

A few of my friends (nearly all of them) started to smoke all of a sudden.

Call me boring but I won't start doing that.

I know many people who are smoking and I think it just stinks.

Perfect? I don't think so!

Remember a few posts earlier I said HE were perfect?

Well, he's not. He does drugs. I don't want him to destroy himself.

I can't say anything to him, 'cause he would laugh at me, but I can't do nothing as well.

Drugs

people just get it: Drugs make things worse.

I just heard that HE does drugs and I'm shocked.

I'm afraid he could get addicted.

I can't talk to him but on the other side I can't stand by and do nothing.

Forget him? I tried!

I'm trying not to love him but I can't he's just... perfect!

Today in class I noticed that he is really sensitive. I never expectet him to be so emotional.

I hoped he would but I never thought it would be a fact.

And that's how he makes it harder for me to forget him.

Music #3

Body

Why aren't we satisfied about what we have.

Many people think they are fat even if they are not.

And the persons who ARE actually fat know that they are but don't do anything about it.

I am no exception. I am also unhappy with my body.

But I don't think I'm fat. I'm too skinny.

Every morning I feel sick because of that.

I need to grow in weight.