Saturday, June 29, 2013

#144

[Source: Cupcake's Blog]
I'm standing in front of her. She's looking at me.
Her eyes are empty, her skin is pale.
She looks so tired and done.
We're standing silently in front of each other.
I look at her.
She looks at me.
She disgusts me. She's disgusting.
I insult her, I scream at her.
She's so ugly, so disgusting.
She's not lovable, not a little.
A tear is running down her face.
But I don't care.
Shall she cry.
I want to go away from her,
want to push her away.
I'm stretching my hand out
and everything I feel is the cold mirror
in front of whom I'm standing.




#143

And instead of helping me up, you knock me out...


#142

My mother literally called me an animal...


Friday, June 28, 2013

Music #29



Translation: Angels (Engel)

You are searching angels but you know they don't exist.
You feel empty because you know that you won't get happy.
You don't have energy 'cause the devil took it from you.
And no matter what you do, you will never get love.
You are searching angels but you know they don't exist.
You feel empty because you know that you won't get happy.
Your heart breaks 'cause you feel the pain too often.
And no matter what you do, look your life fell into pieces.

It's night and you are out again.
Feeling bad in your skin because you carry your grief with you.
It was never planed this way and you remember
How it used to be. You would never have guessed this.
That you suffer every day and have those suicide-thoughts
It's extreme, only drugs keep you off it.
You've been fooled so many times, sure that you are suspicious now!
Everything a lie? No idea but it's seen that you're sad.

When you're sleeping, you only dream bad things unfortunately.
When you're talked to, you take motionless knowledge of it.
You fought every year and lost everything.
You feel cold like your heart was frozen years ago.
It's a vicious circle of which you can't get out.
They want to help you but you don't see it only because of defiance.
You're searching for a sense and an escape to disappear out of here.
But you are not able to finally find this way.

You are searching angels but you know they don't exist.
You feel empty because you know that you won't get happy.
You don't have energy 'cause the devil took it from you.
And no matter what you do, you will never get love.
You are searching angels but you know they don't exist.
You feel empty because you know that you won't get happy.
Your heart breaks 'cause you feel the pain too often.
And no matter what you do, look your life fell into pieces.

You're tired and you only want to sleep.
To forget everything around you and wake up without worries.
The sky is lightblue and the sun donates you warmth
It's in your head like that and at night the stars.
But the fog is too dense, you don't even see the people.
Everything in your head is grey and not worth to fight for
So you already gave your life up.
You don't want it anymore, you would like to take the elevator.

As a lost soul it's not good to live.
Either without love, without energy, without hope or braveness.
Can you feel it? It's like the rain is never ending.
Every raindrop hurts but it takes the dust, too.
When you're looking in the mirror you only see a cold face.
A sad face who says "I can't do this alone"
Who is wishing to never been born.
You would like to be free but you're staying caught in hopeless emptiness.

You are searching angels but you know they don't exist.
You feel empty because you know that you won't get happy.
You don't have energy 'cause the devil took it from you.
And no matter what you do, you will never get love.
You are searching angels but you know they don't exist.
You feel empty because you know that you won't get happy.
Your heart breaks 'cause you feel the pain too often.
And no matter what you do, look your life fell into pieces.


Thursday, June 27, 2013

Music #28

#141

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Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Beautyblender

Oh my gosh this thing is amazing:
You can't compare this with any brush of the world.
When you are using this to blend out your foundation or concealer it will look the same as if you were using your fingers at the end but it doesn't sparkle that much which I find very good.

I used a foundation a few weeks ago and it looked so cakey. With this baby I didn't have this broblem today. It simply looks natural.

My Birthdaywish(es)

It's that time again: My bithday is in about a month.
I already know what I want and I know that I won't get what I want :(
But still I want to show you guys the things I casted an eye on...

I started to use makeup this year so I don't have that much of it.
My greatest wish is this:

The Urban Decay Naked2 Palette:

I know it's too expensive and my parents would never buy that but I still think it's perfect for school because they are all natural colours...




The second thing I'd really like is  a

There are many palettes  which I think are good like the 120 Color Palette or the 88 Color Shimmer Palette.

They are not that expensive and many YouTubers recomend them... 

I know it's too much to ask for but I'm sure I won't get any of this so I can show you EVERYTHING I'd l♥ve to get.


I don't have many brushes (not one good one) so I looked for some on the Internet and the best ones seem to be the Sigma Brushes:

They are so expensive but again many YouTubers recomend them.


Another thing I really need is a Concealer Palette like this e.l.f. one which is not aviable here in Germany -.-'


So that's it.
Let me know in the coments below what products you would recomend or which products you've already used and found good/bad.

I'd really like a feedback.
Would you want me to show all my makeup producs and stuff?
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Tuesday, June 25, 2013

#140

That's my idol:


I Love You  Demi Lovato ♥♥♥

Music Quote #15

I dare you to let me be your one and only.
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms.

... You'll never know if you'll never try ...
- Adele - One And Only -


#139

I want to have him so much...
But I can't risk it...


Music Quote #14

Your turn to cry your heart out...
- Olly Murs - Please Don't Let Me Go -


Music Quote #13

I never knew what I wanted til I looked into your eyes...
- Olly Murs -  Please Don't Let Me Go -


Monday, June 24, 2013

#138

I love your damn laugh.
I love your shitty hair.
I love your gay pink shorts.
I love you being afraid of spiders.
I love you using an umbrella.
I love you for talking like a professor.
I love you for thinking you'd be someone better.

I hate you for thinking the same things at the same time.
I hate you for looking into my eyes.
I hate you for always being honest.
I hate you for always saying your opinion.
I hate you for your jokes.
I hate your gorgeous brown eyes.
I hate you for always making me smile.

I hate you for hating me.
I love you for hating me.
I hate you for being all I think about.
I love you because I love you.
I hate you for keeping my hopes up.
I love you more everytime I see you walk away.
I hate you for not being mine.

I just hate you.
I just love you.


Music Quote #12

I wish we could talk but I don't have a number to call.
- Olly Murs - I Need You Now -


Sunday, June 23, 2013

#137

Only 2 weeks left.
It'll be awesome!

Berlin ♥

#136

This happens with photos of people I used to know.


#135

I don't know why but I feel happy again.


#134

I know I'm not the only one with problems.
But I'm not the only one who has to listen to the problems of others eather.


#133

I'm distancing myself?
Yes.
But that's no reason to give me up.


#132

A happy girl is the prettiest.